Performance Reviews

Need to start writing FY04 performance reviews....I hate doing these..I've got 12 to do and they're due by Dec. 17th. For whatever reason, they've pushed the due dates up so now we have less time to get them done. I've blocked out all day today to work on them. Unfortunately, I'm feeling sick...woke up yesterday morning w/ a sore throat and have been feeling worse since then. May try to play some texas hold 'em tonight....we'll see how I feel.

The Terminal work is not good right now...one of my key folks has been out alot and the future stuff is a mess. I need to reorganize that piece and I've lost time. I'm frustrated with some of the folks since they don't seem to care too much about the work. Trying to work my way through it...

Tomorrow is turkey day with Meg and Lauren...that should be fun. I hope I feel better. Also, ran 3 miles on Tuesday, time 25:47...about an 8:36 pace...8 seconds faster than last time but I was feeling it.

Sunday night

Watching "touching the void" on WETA. Its a little different from the DVD, they have some additional voiceovers but not too much. Got the car washed today and it looks pretty good when its clean. Its running fine too so I have a hard time justifying getting a new car. Looked at my finances too and I'm better off waiting a few months before buying so I'm thinking I'll get the Forrester in March or April. No hurry either way.

Went to watch Michigan and Illinois play yesterday but the bars were really crowded, Erin, Drew, and I tried three different bars before we ended up staying at Mr. Days. Left just after halftime since we were standing.

Saw Julius today to observe a visitation. He looks great and is walking around alot- he just wanted to explore. It was a good visit and L seems to be doing well. Also went to the gym and ran three miles and worked the legs. Total time: 25:55....thinking about running another marathon in May w/ Erin. She convinced me to shoot for an 8:45 pace with a marathon time of 3:45 hrs....thats a full 1:30 faster pace and 45 minutes shorter than what I ran in SF (10:15/4:30 hrs). I think it can be done....I figure I can take 15 minutes off right away because of the SF hills so then I just need to shave another half hour. Yeah right, we'll see......

Risk-taking

Kind of a long read but interesting:

http://cms.psychologytoday.com/articles/pto-19941101-000027.html

It talks about that climber I mentioned in the blog below. I like this quote:

Maddi suggests that well-adjusted people are "good at turning everyday experience into something interesting. My guess is that the safecracker or the mountain climber can't do that as well. They have to do something exciting to get a sense of vitality. It's the only way they have of getting away from the sense that life sucks.

Well-adjusted people? Thats harsh. So according to this, if I wasn't climbing I'd be addicted to drugs, gambling....Hmmmmm.....strangely enough I have noticed my "need" to go to Vegas at least twice a year has dropped since I've started climbing. Also going to learn snowboarding this winter. After reading "touching the void", now I want to try mountaineering. I'm sensing a pattern. We'll see.

Sunday Morning

Bailed on the hike w/ E and SJ. Felt bad but just wasn't feeling it. Ended up heading to a party w/ the climbing group. We dranks some beers and watched "climber porn" which was just some climbing videos. Hilarious. One of the videos showed this solo climber who would go up some 600 feet 5.11s. Insane. Well he died on a solo climb in '93. I wonder what he was thinking while he was falling......that really bothers me.

Going to do some climbing today at GF w/ Neal. Looking forward to that. Cleaned the condo yesterday (instead of Veterans day). Hmmmmm......watching CNN and just found that the tax dedcution for giving your car to charity is going to change after Dec. 31. In '05 you can only deduct what it actually sold for not what the blue book value is. I may accelerate my plans to get a new car. BTW- I've decided to buy a Subaru Forrester. Its in between an SUV/typical car and gets decent gas mileage. I talked to a women at Starbucks yesterday who had one and she said she loved it.

Spent some more money this week on a sleeping bag/pad and also ordered some more books from Amazon.com.

Day off for Veterans Day

Almost done with "Touching the Void". I can't understand how he had the resolve to keep going, its beyond me. Have some time off today for veterans day. Heres some of the things I'd like to get done- clean condo, clean car, climb. Lets see how the day goes. Overall, not pleased with the way things are going right now. Trying not to be too hard on myself but need to do something to keep things moving.

Finally had VN provide some architectures and meeting w/ FAA on friday to review. We'll see how that goes. Still uncomfortable with me leading this work but trying to work through it. I think the WV civil war is finally ending, such drama. I need to talk to AM and CL to close this out.

A good quote from the climbing group:

Struggle all day with what you love doing, and you're just tired.
Struggle 5 minutes with something you don't like, and you're overworked.

Right on...

Braces

December 20th......thats the day the braces are coming off. The ortho did a CR (check for removal) today, made some adjustments, and said next time they're outta here. Sweet! I wanted them off before Thanksgiving but this will work.

Had a good weekend. Drove out to Coopers Rock on Saturday for some bouldering, not too sure how I feel about that. We were going up some pretty high boulders and it was unnerving to be that high w/o a rope. Sunday did some climbing at Sugarloaf Mountain. That is a great area w/ good rock and some beautiful views. Scraped up my arms and legs pretty good, interested to see what the doc. will say on Wed. for my physical.

Work was so-so, ATO roadmap stuff and WV meeting which I ended up skipping out early on anyway for the ortho.

Portrait of an INFP or ISFP (take your pick)

I took the Myers-Briggs test a couple of weeks ago and it said I was an INFP (Introvert, Intuitive, Feeling, and Perceiving) or an ISFP (Introvert, Sensing, Feeling, and Perceiving.). I was tied on the Intuitive vs. Sensing dimension and, according to them, the tie-breaker goes to the N (Intuitive). Anyway, heres what the say about INFPs:

If you are an INFP, you make up approximately 1% of the American population.

You are sensitive, idealist, and loyal, and have a strong sense of honor concerning your values.

You are interested in possibilities beyond what is already known.

You focus your energies on your dreams and visions.

You are depply committed to whatever you choose to undertake.

You are compassionate, sympathetic, and understanding, and very sensitive to the needs of others.

Possible blind spots:

Since logic is not a priority to INFPs, they sometimes make errors of fact and are unware that they are being illogical.

Because INFPs are so committed to their ideals, they may have a tendency to overlook other points of view, and appear to be ridgid.

Since INFPs are so emotionally entangled in their undertakings they are very sensitive to criticism.

Because they are "people pleasers", INFPs find it hard to criticize others or to take a stand for an unpopular position.

Possible solutions:

Developing more objectivity in reference to their projects will help INFPs be less vulnerable to both criticsm and disappointment.

INFPs need to learn to be more assertive and offer constructive criticism of others when the need arises.

Not too bad as far as describing myself. Pretty much dead on. Now, heres what they say about ISFPs:

If you are an ISFP, you make up approximately 6% of the American population.

You are patient, flexible, easy to get along with and have little need to dominate or control others.

While you are gentle, caring, and sensitive, you tend to keep much of your personal ideals and values to yourself.

Since you tend not to lead you are often a loyal follower.

Some possible blind spots:

Being highly sensitive, the ISFP can clearly see the needs of others, and may neglect their onw needs in the porcess.

ISFPs may be seen as gullible and too trusting because they accept things as they are.

Possible solutions:

ISFPs need to learn to take time out and care for their own needs.

Learning to consider the the implications of others behaviors, applying
some objectivitity and skepticism to their analysis, may help the ISFP become
better judges of character.

A couple of issues with this one. First, is the "too trusting" and "gullible" part. I'm actually pretty skeptical about most things I hear in the media or read about. Always like to verify stuff on my own. Also, the "since you tend not to lead" part is not really accurate. At least with work stuff, I lead pretty much everything. I am the "boss-man" as they say. Other than that, pretty decent assessment overall.

Week in Review

Hmmm....lets see if I can remember what I did this week:

Monday- ?? Don't remember. Scary.
Tuesday- Alisia helped pack my stuff for my office move. Went climbing w/ sky and Ocean.
Wednesday- Alot of drama at work. Had a miscommunication and forgot to clean my office. Felt really badly that K and A had to finish up. Boss called me when I was downtown, WTF- theres nothing I could do unless theres some magic transport that I don't know about. Then I got back to work and there were some last minute edits to our deliverable. Also, boss scolded me about Daves WV deliverable. So happy that I won't be working w/ her anymore. I did a run @ Golds. Tired.
Thursday- Worked on slides for Jays meeting for Friday. Wanted to go to HH w/ Yahoo group but was tired and fell asleep on the couch.
Friday- Briefed Jay on our FY05 plan. Went really well and I'm excited. Spent the afternoon setting up one-on-ones.
Saturday (today)- going to a RAB w/ E and football watching in the afternoon.

Courage: Quotes

Some quotes I found about courage that I really like:

3rd Agreement: Don’t Make Assumptions. Find the courage to ask questions and to express what you really want. Communicate with others as clearly as you can to avoid misunderstandings, sadness and drama. With just this one agreement, you can completely transform your life.”
~ Don Miguel Ruiz from The Four Agreements Courage Quotes - Honesty

“A 'No' uttered from deepest conviction is better and greater than a 'Yes' merely uttered to please, or what is worse, to avoid trouble.”
~ Mahatma Gandhi20th century Indian spiritual & political leader

I postpone death by living, by suffering, by error, by risking, by giving, by losing. Anais Nin

It takes courage to push yourself to places that you have never been before... to test your limits... to break through barriers. And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom. Anais Nin

Life is a process of becoming, a combination of states we have to go through. Where people fail is that they wish to elect a state and remain in it. This is a kind of death. Anais Nin

Life is truly known only to those who suffer, lose, endure adversity and stumble from defeat to defeat. Anais Nin

Life shrinks or expands in proportion to one's courage. Anais Nin

RAB

Went swimming Thursday night. I definititely feel like I'm getting better but I'm still having trouble with my breathing. Went to dinner after that with Erin, Lauren, Drew, and Kev. Drew and Lauren both got health insurace so it was a min-celeberation. We were talking about Halloween costumes for me and Erin eventually said "screw you" which was funny.

Friday met w/ Jay, was late and embarassed. Anyway, it went well and I'm excited about this whole thing. I think its going to be great. Hung out at FAA rest of the day. Went to happy hour with Jim and Randy. It was ok. Jim talks a little bit too much about work for my tastes, Randy not as much. We argued about Bush. Jim is voting for him which I was suprised about.

Today going to do the Run Against Bush this morning.

Julius 1st B-day

Went to the nursery yesterday (2:30 - 6:30). I can't remember the last time I've been in one. It was fun seeing all the little ones running around. The boss lady showed me a copy of Julius testing and he looks like hes testing fine. They had their own little boxes with their names on it to put their stuff in. The party with Julius was great. I was happy I was able to make it there. I ended up taking some videotape while Marty took pictures. I need to get some of those pictures from them. Anyway, Julius was a little tired and cried a bit but he had no problems when I held him. I think he remembers who I am. Thats it...

Group Meeting

Just met w/ my group and told them I'm leaving to manage a different effort. Peter looked upset but I talked to him later and he's ok. Ralph was not happy but I told him he's better off staying where he is. My stomach is all upset. I guess its making me realize this is real and I'm getting nervous. Ah well gotta love change...

Went swimming and climbing w/ Erin. She did a good job of improving my feet technique for swimming. Swallowing alot of water though. We may go swimming again on Thursday.

Marathon Conversation

Had a funny conversation this morning getting my coffee- saw Charlie and we were talking about work and he mentioned seeing me at gravelly point. At this point I was feeling all proud and bad ass and told him yeah, I was running there and just got done with the SF marathon. He then said thats great and in the course of conversation mentioned he had run two marathons before- in just over 3:00 hrs!!!! My jaw just about dropped through the floor. Hes got to be in his mid-fifties so I was humbled a bit. Anyway, hes interested in partnering with me for training on whatever events I would like to do so thats cool. Talk to ya....

This and That

I visited Julius last night and it was amazing. He's such a beautiful baby and so happy. I was really looking forward to seeing him and I picked him up for awhile. He was interested in my braces and was putting his fingers on my teeth. I'm glad I did this CASA thing. It looks like I'm going to see Julius at his daycare next week. I also need to follow-up w/ Leslie after her meltdown and go visit her.

Big happening this past Monday (8/16). I'm definitely going to be moving over to Tony C. group to lead up the SE for Terminal. Its a big move seeing as a I have no experience but I think this is the type of stuff I thrive on. Tell me I can't do something and I will work to prove you wrong. Anyway, let's get it on. I'm ready to move on that work. Its going to take a couple of months to transition over but we'll see how things go.

Have not been doing much working out or running at all since the marathon. I'm definitely getting my weight back and clothes are fitting better. Heading out to do some rock climbing tonight w/ Lauren.

What else? Got my braces adjusted yesterday and I think they may come off Nov./Dec. At least thats what he says. Also, signed up for Spanish, Cooking for Busy Professional, and Myer-Brigss Assessment. I was going to sign up for Internet classes but I think I can take those at work for free. That's it for now.

Marathon- The Week After

So I haven't updated in awhile. The SF marathon is over and I was able to do it in 4:30:06 (10:18 min./mile pace). I did better than I thought I would. Meg, Kev, Ronnie, and Saisha were there to watch.

Spent the weekend at Bears Den and the climbing was great- we set-up a sweet route at the far left that was great to climb on. I also ran into a couple of copperhead snakes while we were setting up a second route. That had me a bit shaken up but it didn't bite me even though I was standing over it.

Marathon Run #42 (10 miles)

Total time- 1:42:46. Just about a 10:20 pace. It felt pretty good. I'm optimistic again that I can pull this off. Next week will be a big test, think its something like 15 miles. Icing the knees right now...

Marathon Run #41 (7 miles)

Left work early and did my 7 miles. The GPS had trouble tracking so my timing got all messed up. The run went well overall and I'm pretty sure I was averaging 10 mile/min. I went over to Home Depot to try to get better sized filters but couldn't find any. I did get Return of the King DVD so that's cool. See ya..

Marathon Run #40 (3 miles)

Did the run yesterday and it wasn't bad. Total time was 31:00. Just over 10 minute/mile. I got a pay raise today (3%) but also had to deal with a water leak that has put water all over my carpet. Its starting to smell moldy since the A/C is toast as well. Someone will be coming by tomorrow to check it out.

Marathon Run #39 (13 miles- only did 5)

Tried to run 13 but it was too damn hot w/ temps in the upper 80s. Got as far as 5 miles and turned around. I ended up just walking back for the last four miles. Total distance was 9 miles w/ time of 2:00 hrs. The good news is that the legs seem to be Ok. What is making me nervous is that the legs felt good but I just couldn't keep running. I hope it was just the heat and this doesn't mean I'm losing out mentally.

I also missed Mass today so I can get an early run but didn't start the run till noon but I learned I need to do these long runs early in the morning if I want any chance of completing them. Well that's it..

Marathon Run #38 (6 miles)

Well, I tried the 6 miles today and it seemed to go ok overall. Total time- 1:04. The only reason I was able to run today was because the Spanish I was planning on taking tonight got canceled. The enrollment wasn't enough to hold the class.

I was nervous about how my legs would hold up. The left leg is still hurting but it seems like the right knee is holding up. I just got done icing the knees and am watching the season finale of Angel. Not enough action but it'll do. Anyway, I'll know tomorrow about how the legs pan out. Planning on 3 for Friday and 13 for Sunday.

I have an early flight to ATL tomorrow for EAT. This weekend looks like PW RV on Saturday, making sangrias, and Shrek 2 at some point. That't it for now...

Marathon Run #37 (3 miles)

Did three miles in 34:20. It didn't feel good. The hip and right knee were acting up. I'll see if I can do the 6 miler tommorrow. The DW project at ARI went bad (again) and I'm so sick of that stupid project. I'll be happy when it is done. We are looking to wrap it all up in late June/early July.

I did my first CASA hearing today for JB. I also talked to Rebecca about the case. There's alot to do and I look forward to helping JB out.

Marathon Run #36 (A random 5 miles)

So I decided sometime last week that the June SD marathon is off. It was disappointing but the injury never did heal properly. I want to get this over with so I quickly found a marathon August 1 @ San Fran. That is the one I'm shooting for now. I checked it out the website today and it doesn't look too hilly. Sis and niece live there so I'll have some supporters.

So in preparation for August 1, did five miles today (Total time- 53:00) and it felt OK overall. The right knee is a little tight but seems like this might be the turning point. I figured out the schedule of runs to meet the August 1 marathon. I will need to be ready for a 13 miler next Sunday. This should be an interesting week. Tomorrow is my CASA hearing, need to run 3 miles, and meet Susan for some climbing. Wed. is my Spanish class. I leave for ATL early Thurs. morning and get back early Fri. morning. At least I'll get to be in a simulator for that.

Yesterday, I did some climbing w/ John and Susan at Carderock. LC joined us for her 21st b-day. It was her first climb outside and I think she had a good time. Later we had dinner and sangrias to celebrate her B-day. That's it.

Marathon Run #35 (4 miles)

Did the run in 42:00 but it was not smooth. The right knee was hurting again and I stopped to stretch three times during the run. Icing the knees down now and watching "IT" on TV. A great flick that has some funny memories of the guys back at school. Anyway, I'm hoping between stretching, icing, and Ibuprofen I'll be Ok for the nine miler tomorrow. I'm not hopeful that I'll make it to the marathon but I have to keep trying.

Got back from ATL for EAT this morning. Not a bad trip but I'm tired of travel and would much rather stay home. That's it...

Marathon Run #34 (was supposed to do 12 but no way)

After a long injury recovery period, I finally did about 6 miles w/ a combination of walking & running. The left leg felt fine but, can you believe it, the right knee started hurting after a few miles. The pain was similar to what happened with the left knee so I'm hoping the stretches will help. Feel like I still have a chance to get the marathon done but it's going to be tough. This week will be a make or break for me.

Weekend- PW on saturday, met a girl name Jaiva, she's looking to do another one in May. Did the CASA walk of light ceremony tonight. Met the girl who is working three jobs, she talks too fast but I know she is just trying to be friendly. Going to go to bed now. See ya...

Climbing @ Crescent Rocks

Went climbing outside for the first time this year. It was great. Sunny and 50s. I had alot of fun w/ Susan, John, Rob, and Craig. Tried about 5 climbs and was only able to finish one. I did the one with the stemming. That was something new. The Bear's Den was cool and Susan made us a cake when we got back. Now we're talking about going somewhere else in Mayl. See ya..

Marathon Run #33 (7 miles but only ran/walked 5)

Cold and windy. Left hip was hurting the whole time and right knee felt like crap. I ended up only doing 5 miles but the last 1.5 miles was pretty much walking. The legs hurt and now I'm icing down. I'm going to take tomorrow off and hope by Sunday all this will be a bad memory. That 10 miler last Sunday really screwed me up. That day it was cold, windy, rainy, didn't do any warm-ups, and didn't stretch until I got home 45 minutes later. I'm not suprised I got injured and haven't recovered yet. Lesson learned....

Marathon Run #32 (3 miles)

Total time- 29:53. This one was done outside and it was rough. My left hip was hurting and I never did feel good. I'm icing the knees down and hopefully it will feel better tomorrow. Time to make some dinner...

Post 10 miler & CASA

Right knee is toast. Should NOT have kept running when I felt it go. Iced it down as soon as I got home and took some ibuprofen. I'm going to take tomorrow off from running as well and maybe Wed. I hope things will get better with just a bit of rest. Also checked the time on the website for the 10 miles- 1:41. The leg was hurting throughout the day and I was starting to limp.

Took my court observation today and it was anti-climatic. Reading the case file was sad. Taken into foster care after neglect. Mom gave her anti-depressants to make her feel better. Anyway, waited around for the case to start and finally went in. It lasted all of about 2 minutes w/ the judge scanning through the paperwork. The lawyers got everything done and signed in the hallway. Kids will stay in foster care w/ next hearing Oct. 7th. I should be getting my first case soon.

Marathon Run #31 (10 miles)

Did this one with EC and we ran the Cherry Blossom together, I'll find the run time on the website later. Picked her up at 6:30 and we walked over to the run. I woke up at and it was raining. The run itself was pretty tough. It was chilly, windy, and raining off and on. My right knee is hurt and it feels like the same injury that my left knee went through way back when. I iced it down big time, did some stretching, took a couple of ibuprofen, and noew I'm feeling like a nap. I think I might take Tuesday off if things don't feel better by then. I talked to Celi yesterday about the adventure race and she is still in. Purchased some trail running shoes to get ready for it. Sleepy now....

Marathon Run #30 (4 miles)

Total time- 43:20. Rainy and cold again outside today so this run was done again at Gold's. Relatively easy but the hips are hurting. I think the treadmill is alot harder than running outside. Anyway, did some laundry tonight and will be getting mattresses delivered tomorrow. Also going with EC to pick up running packet and I'll probably do some shopping. Weather for Sunday run (CB 10 miler) looks a bit chilly (40s) w/ a slight chance of rain. That's all..

Marathon Run #29 (7 miles)

Total time-75:45. Raining and cold outside so I did this one at Gold's. It was brutal!!! I almost felt like quitting a couple of times. The runs outside are alot easier. Maybe its because of the distractions but this run was tough. Watching interview with a vampire and icing the knees down. Have had trouble sleeping all week. Part of it is this SFC evolution work which is going nowhere.

CASA Graduation

Tonight was the grad. ceremony. The speakers were President of CASA Board of Directors, Capital Action (put together the volunteer books), and one of the judges. It was cool overall and I'm happy that I'm part of this. We took pictures as we went up to get our pins and certificate. Talked to Dad and he is loving the GPS, said he reads the manual in the bathroom and walks .9 miles. See ya..

Marathon Run #28 (3 miles)

Total time- 32:10. Did this one at the gym. Nice and easy pace ~10:30 min/mile. Relatively easy but the knees are a bit tender. Just got done icing them down. Took a break at 1.6 to start matching breaks at San Diego marathon. It feels good that this was pretty easy. Along way from my first few training runs where I was worried about the knee giving out. Thursday is seven mile run and the weather looks crappy. I'm hoping I can do it outside, it's boring doing runs at the gym. I finally did do some weight stuff last night (back & bis) and it feels good to be a bit sore today. Tomorrow is CASA graduation- excited about that. That's it.

Marathon Run #27 (13 miles)

Total time- 2:08:52. Under a 10 minute mile. Weather today was good, sunny and in the 60s. Aircraft were departing to the South so they were taking off over my head, very cool. I went to Mass this morning and felt pretty good about how this past week has gone. Came home, hooked up the Ipod to charge for the run and did some grocery shopping. I bought a hydration pack for the run. Put keys, ipod, and two vanilla gels in the pack. It worked out pretty well. Overall, the run was easier than I thought it would be. The last mile was tough but I felt pretty good. I've showered, stretched, eaten some cereal, and am now icing the knees. I'm going to take a nap soon..

B-day Dinner & CASA

Had dinner at Marakesh. Great food and a belly dancer w/ a sword. Joked about pasties and the 10 foot lobster. Very funny.

I had my last CASA class yesterday. We talked about report writing (Rebecca who is my supervisor), the CASA org, and a summary given by Donna. The summary was pretty emotional and touched on alot of the things I wanted to do. She told stories about CASAs leaving, a letter from a 12 yr. old CASA, and a song written by a CASA after a CASA chld died. I felt really good afterwards and am looking forward to my first case but am still terrified. Graduation is on Wed.

Need to run 13 miles today but when I got up today my knees were still sore. I hope this works out....

Marathon Run #26 (3 miles)

Total time- 0:30:15. This was brutal. I was sore from yesterday's run, so this might not have been a good idea. I ran on the curtis trail this time. The good news is that it had some great hills which will be good training for SD marathon. The bad news is that I was losing the GPS signal and I was in alot of pain. I hope I get enough rest for Saturday's half-marathon.

I got a cool suprise at work this morning. They lured me in w/ an ORD meeting and it was a spot award for SFC markings. The whole team was there (except for JG) and it was nice to be recognized for everyone. Illini playing tonight so I'm hoping for a big win.

Marathon Run #25 (6 miles) & CASA

Total time- 1:04. Left work around 4:30. It was a nice day today. Sunny and in the high 60s. This run was tougher than I thought it would be. The knees and legs were tender from my run on Tuesday at the gym. Like always, I wasn't really getting into the groove until about mile 3. Got stuck by lthe stupid ights again on the way back which screwed up my time. Icing the knees down right now and watching poker championships.

CASA last night was about poverty and its effects on families. The speaker basically said to treat families with respect and dignity. The second speaker talked about developmental stages of children which I thought was interesting. Learned that it's normal for kids to be scared of strangers around 2 yrs old since they are becoming self-aware. Emailed JM my rec. letter and he faxed it to CASA. Poor Rebecca, she spilled her coffee when I called her to request the rec. letter. One more class on Saturday and then graduate next Wed. Terrified!!

Marathon Run #24 (3 miles) & CASA

Total time- 30:10. Ran at the gym w/ pace of 6.3. A bit harder then I expected, think it's because of the 12 miler on Sunday. Just got done stretching and watching the end of Independence Day.

CASA training last night was about..mmm having trouble remembering. That's why I'm doing this type of stuff. Anyway, at the beginning the speaker talked about hearsay and what information we have access to as CASA and how to talk about it with different people. Also, there was alot of discussion on disclosures. There was also some brief skits on interviewing where they gave example interviews with a Mom (funny) and a social worker. The last bit was the story of Amy and how everyone might have a different view of the situation but we as CASA are supposed to bring it all together. I emailed Kev the websites and I think he would be good at it. He emailed me and MC, EC, and D about having a B-day dinner at Marakesh. Sounds like fun and I think we're going to do it on Saturday. A

At work today, had one of those what the hell am I doing and/or I have no clue what I'm doing here (take your pick) moments.

Marathon Run #23 (12 miles)

Total time- 1:59:46. Just about a 10 minute mile pace. I definitely have to get a hydration pack. It's too hard fumbling with the fanny pack to get my drinks and I'm wasting energy messing with it. The gatorade fell out once and I also stopped for a bit to put the bottle back in. I'm going to get one this week. Overall, it was brutal. The wind was strong and it was at my back on the way out but right in my face on the way in. It slowed me down alot but I think it was good overall to experience that. I was hurting at the end and had my doubts but I got it done. Icing the knees down right now and watching TV. Illinois is up 49-33 over Cincy at halftime. Sweet.

Marathon #22 (3 miles)

Ran 3 miles in Virginia Beach at the gym. Was there to watch EC run the marathon. She did great and I'm very proud of her. K was a litte tired so I helped him drive. The Ps and LC came and suprised her. That was very nice. Had a celebration dinner tonight at MC w/ everyone. Tomorrow is (gulp) a 12 mile run. We'll see how it goes.

CASA

Got home from CASA around 10. Talked about interviewing and conflict resolution skills. Long day briefed SDF on lighting project and got home around 5. Now I'm going to sleep.

Marathon Run #21 (6 miles)

Did this run outside and it was a brutal!! Total time- 1:01, just over 10 minute/mile. Left work early (3:30) and temps were in the 30s w/ a slight drizzle/freezing rain. Never could quite get in the groove. I think it was because of the cold. Also, dropped the Ipod and the collar broke so I had to stop to put it in the fanny pack. Also, legs were rubbing together which was kinda painful and definitely annoying. Also, I need to figure out a better way to avoid the lights. Got home jumped in the shower, just got done stretching and now going to have some Ravioli. Going to call a cab around 6:30 for the trip to SDF. A little hectic but I'm glad I was able to get the run done. Talk to ya..

Marathon Run #20 (3 miles) & CASA

Left work early today to get my 3 miles done. Went to Gold's again and got the run done in 30:45- just a bit over 10 min/mile. I didn't get a chance to stretch before or after and also no ice for the knees. I did just get done stretching at home though so I hope that will keep the injury gremlins away.

The CASA training was very interesting tonight. The first speaker talked about cultural diversity but it was her first time and I could barely hear her from the back of the room. There was a bit of controversy when someone asked why kids come to school not knowing English. Someone up front said this was sterotypical, and that in fact, families do want their young ones to learn English but life in a new country can be overwhelming. Oftentimes, there is no previous education, no money, and a bulk of the effort is spent just trying to survive so learning/teaching English gets low on the list.

The really intersting talk was the second speaker. His introductory bio was amazing and he was president of a bunch of committees, on TV and radio. It seriously took a couple of minutes to go through everything he had done. Made me feel like a bum. His main point was to keep the kids in the family even if there is alot of "craziness" there (his word). One girl mentioned how her sister was taken into foster care temporarily because of some locks the parents put on the door. She took crack cocaine while in foster care and the rest of her life went downhill. Point being much more damage can be done in foster care then in trying to keep the family together. He also said he believes in the majority of cases of sexual abuse both spouses are aware and should be blamed (e.g., don't accept the excuse I didn't know what he was doing). Also, he cautioned against providing too much personal information as it can be used against you, literally (he said he was driven off the road by someone who figured out where he lived). It was all alot to think about since your gut instinct is to take the kid out of this environment. He convinced me this is often NOT the right thing to do. His other bit of advice is to not be judgemental and just focus on the facts (e.g., why aren't you going to therapy).

Marathon Run #19 (7 miles)

A little chilly today, in the 50s. Total time: 1:10:15- just a shade over for a 10 minute mile. I took a break evey 1.25 m and that is working really well. I was able to run really hard at the end and was pretty tired but went OK overall. I did a much beter job of planning the run so it ended just a block or so away from the condo. Not alot of people out today because of the chilly weather. The planes were landing over my head again which was cool.

Watching the Illinois/Wisconsin championchip game. Illinois is getting housed right now (24-11 5:25 1st). Feel good enough to go climbing again tonight. I'm going to ask the folks if we're ready to go outside now. Also, was thinking today about extending my membership. While I'm thinking about it was hard to get up for Mass today. I stayed up till about 2 last night just messing around. I did eventually go and I'm glad I did, feel better overall. That's it...

Caps Game

Went to the Caps game last night which meant no 3 mile marathon training run. That's Ok though, my body needed a break. The game was cool- Blackhawks won 4-3. They had some funny close-ups on the kiss-cam. We had some pre-game cocktails at Fado's and then went to Jaeilos afterwards for some Sangrias. 3 pitchers worth. I was a bit tired for the prevention works RV today and took a nap. Anyway, while drinkng Sangrias, JH told a funny story about "fear factor" and seafood. PW was interesting today. Chris forgot the RV keys so we had to go back to his place, ended up being about 40 minutes late for the first stop. I did some yelling at the Caps game last night and now the throat is sore again. Oh well, tomorrow is 7 mile run so shouldn't be too bad. Also, Illini is playing championship game at 2:30 so I need to be back by then. See ya...

Marathon Run #18 (5 miles)

Not a bad run, did it at the gym. Total time- 53:20. Brought some Gatorade and took a break every 1.25. I finally got in the groove around mile 3 but was feeling tired aroud 4.5. It was strange to be feeling tired with only a five mile run but I think it was psychological. Icing the knees now. Talked w/ MC about seeing EC run the marathon. I'm leaving work on the 19th around 12 to do the roadtrip.

The CASA training was pretty intense last night as well. We had a sexual abuse counselor talk to us as well as a Foster care worker. She was funny as well and had some sad stories. Like I said, this is all intimidating but I will try my best.

Marathon Run #17 (3 miles)

Total time 31:20. This was at the gym and it was a bit rough.

Marathon Run #16 (10 miles)

Total time- 1:46. Definitely better than the 11 mile pace I was shooting for (1:50). Another awesome day for a run sunny and 50s. The planes were landing over the trail again but timing didn't work out quite as well this time. I tried taking a break every 1.25 m and it worked really well. I was able to run strong at the end and didn't feel too bad at all. I've gotta work out better timing though to make sure I'm closer to home when I get done with the run. This time I got the 10 m done but had to walk for a bit to get back home. Once I got home, I stretched, iced, took a very brief nap, showered and went rock climbing. I enjoyed climbing tonight did the red 5.8 overhang (second attempt) and also did the V1 bouldering blue route.

I talked to CR yesterday and we are going to do the adventure race in September. I re-read the Post article and am intimidated (what else is new). Anyway, it's a go but we need a third team member. I'm going to ask EC if she's inerested. She's got crew experience which will help the canoeing piece. I also talked to JC on Saturday and we are going to plan a backpacking trip for July in August. That should be cool! I saw Rachel last night for dinner at MC's.

Marathon Run #15 (3 miles)

Total time today 31:20. I'm still taking a break every 1.25m and it seems to be working ok. Just got done stretching and sitting here watching Star Trek. The afternoon at work today was pretty much a waste after about 2:30. I was so sleepy and just spent the time surfing. Talked to MC and got a room reserved to watch EC run her marathon. MC is bringing the parents in to see EC run. That's pretty cool. It's looking like things are a go. All the pieces seem to be working well together. I'm sore here and there but nothing unusual so far. Gotta go eat..

Marathon Run #14 (5 miles)

Today I left work early (~4:00) and headed to Gold's to run the five miles. Total time 54:30, so I'm still averaging about 11 minutes miles. The run was good but I didn't really get a chance to stretch before or after the run. Showered at the gym, got a bite to eat at Starbucks, and then headed to the CASA class. An attorney briefed us on the legal stuff but she had alot of sad stories too. We also learned how the cases go through the system. I still feel a bit humble and intimidated by the whole thing because I really can't screw this up. Got home around 10:30 and did my leg stretches so I hope that helps avoid the whole injury thing. That's it.

Marathon Run #13 (3 miles)

I did a real quick run at the gym. Stretched for a few minutes and then headed straight to the gym w/o any warm-up. I hope I didn't cause any serious harm to the legs. Total time 31:30 pace 5.9 and then pace of 6.0 at 2.5 miles. I did try something different with a break every 1.25 m instead of 1.5. Not sure if it makes any easier. Anyway, came home quickly, showered, and then went rock climbing with Susan. Shoulder is hurting a bit but can't resist climbing. I was able to get the white "squiggly" route after a several attempts, Susan got it on the first attempt....ironic but funny. Throat STILL HURTS!!! That's it...

CASA

Attended the initial CASA training session last night. We did fingerprinting, standard introductions of everybody (hate those), and then they briefed us on roles and responsibilites. It was a large group, around forty something. THere was someone there from work. She is in MITRE 1. I'm excited but not sure what I'm getting myself into and don't want to mess up since we're talking serious stuff here. This is no foolin'. Anyway, I'm looking forward to the training. I have a few chapters to read before Thursday's class.

Wx outside is awesome. I may see if I can sneak out early to run my 3 miles. I need to do the run and be at climbing by 7:30. We'll see. See ya..

Marathon Run#12 (9 miles)

My first big run!! I'll get right to the good news- did it outside (sweet weather- sunny and in the 60s) and my time was 1:38:27 (~11 minute pace). I started out with all my stuff- had the Ipod, one water bottle, the GPS, and my fanny pack. I felt like gadget man. Anyway, started the run messing with the GPS trying to get the virtual trainer to work and eventually gave up and just started with standard distance/pace/time. It took a few minutes for the GPS to pick up all the satellites. Worked fine after the GPS got the satellites. Ran into EC on the run, was so focused on the run didn't even see her until she grabbed my arm while passing me. Also, the path ran me right by National airport. It was awesome!! The planes were landing right over the trail so they flew over my head- maybe 200 ft tops. It was so cool. There were a bunch of people on the approach end of the runway watching the planes land. Overall, not too bad. I actually thought it would be worse. Icing the knees down right now.

One other thing, last night I had a strange sensation in my mouth. I finally realized what it was. My front teeth were finally touching!! I had never felt that before so it was cool. The braces are doing their thing. That's all...

Mountain Biking

Just got back from biking. Very cool. A good workout. Unfortunately, the trails were still a little muddy so we stopped earlier so we don't mess them up for other folks. Eric is going to send out an email to us for group rides when the trail gets better. This is the first good wx day in awhile, driving home there was a bunch of people parked at R island. Need to get some shopping done today and stop over at REI for some backpacks. I've been checking out that adventure racing page again and not sure yet about competing in that. I'm thinking I will...

Marathon Run #12 (3 miles)

Did three miles at the gym, ran 5.9 for the first two miles and 6.0 for the last mile. Total time- 31:15. Getting ready to go for dinner with MC. We're going to go try that Mexican restaurant down the street from me. I'm going to give her the bad news about BN's son. Sooooo sad, but Paul said he heard from BN this morning and it looks like he may be out of the woods.

No Running Today

Skipped the run tonight. I had a rough briefing for the Integrated Task- alot of questions on our approach to the analysis, especially from the MIT guy. Overall, it was good to get feedback and they all had good points. I also got some sad news, BN son tried to commit suicide. He's had it rough the last couple of years and I feel really bad for him. He's a good guy. Anyway, left FAA early and went home to take a nap. I'm feeling even worse now so I decided to skip the run tonight. The throat hurts more, hope this gets better. That's it for now..

Marathon Run #11 (4 miles)

Ran the 4 miles at the gym. Time 43:30- started with a pace of 5.7 and then moved up to 5.8 at 1.5 m and then set it to 5.9 for the last mile. This run felt hard but I think its because I still feel sick from whatever I had a couple of weeks ago. The throat still hurts when I swallow. I don't know how I'm going to run 9 miles on Sunday let alone 26 for the marathon....just need to keep pressing. Icing the knees down right now. Talk to ya..

Marathon Run #10 (3 miles)

As scheduled, I did another 3 miles. Didn't run outside as planned- weather was still a littly chilly and it was raining. Total time- 31:30. Turned up the pace to 5.9 towards the end and I could feel the knee tightening up but it stayed ok. Sitting here watching "24". Need to jump in the shower sometime tonight.

Chillin' with the Ipod

Thought I'd write a little something since I'm bored. Sitting in my recliner now listening to Ravel: Bolero and kinda watching "The Ring" on HBO. Just cleaned the kitchen, living room and my bathroom. That was way overdue- my place was getting to be a real mess till even I couldn't stand it! Work was not too bad. Got the initial outline done for the briefing on Thursday. Talked w/ UH and JM and it looks like we may be riffing some people. One person that's on the potential list is in my group. Sad. We'll see how it goes. Managed to stretch in the morning and evening. I decided not to go to the gym (cleaning was sorely needed) tonight so my body can just chill for a bit. The throat still hurts from when I was sick a few weeks ago. Very strange but it still hurts to swallow sometimes. Anyway, looking forward to my 3 miles tomorrow (Run #10).

Marathon Run #9 & Climbing

Ran 5 miles at the gym. I didn't run outside like I said I would in my blog below. I'm nervous about running the longer ones outside because I don't want to get stuck out somewhere if the knee goes. Anyway, I'm going to run outside for the short run during the week and we'll see about the nine miler next Sunday. Still, the five miles felt pretty good. I also checked the schedule and it looks like the Run Against Bush 10 miler is going to correspond to a 13 mile run in my schedule. Not sure yet what I'm going to do about that but not a big deal. Also, the schedule I'm running with is about a week too much with respect to the June marathon. I'll only have about two weeks after the big 20 mile run to taper down. That's all I gotta say about that. Got home and stretched but didn't get a chance to ice since I had to leacve again to go climbing.

I also finally did the yellow V2 route!! I asked Eliza to come over and show me how she did it. Once she showed me I took a couple more attempts and made it. I was there for about 45 minutes before I finally got it.

Prevention Works

Just got back from PW and I thought it went pretty well. I worked the computer and input the info. (i.e., how many needles were exchanged). One guy rolled up his pants and showed us his abscessess. Sad. I was suprised at how friendly/happy some of the people were. Addicted to drugs and they're joking around like it's all good. Billie is pretty cool and I'm glad I'm working with her.

Marathon Run #8- At the gym, ran 3 miles. I took a nap when I got home from work today and was trying to rationalize not going running. Finally motivated myself to get up and get the run done. I'm glad I did. Sunday is 5 miles which I'm going to do outside for the first time since I hurt the knee. Nervous.

Marathon Run #7- At the gym, ran 4 miles (consistent with training schedule). Icing the knees down right now. Looked at the training schedule and it looks pretty tough. I'll take it one day at a time. So far so good with respect to the bum knee, if it doesn't give up I should be golden. I also passed my test to go to green level last night. That was sweet. Turning felt real natural and made climbing alot easier. That's all for now.

Marathon Run #6- Did 3 m (consistent with training plan) at the gym. Did get some bummer news that Celi and Ronnie are not going to run in June. We're going to train for the marathon in October. I, however, have not decided to drop out just yet. I'm going to keep training and maybe do two marathons this year!! I know this is probably unrealistic but what do I have to lose? That's it.

Marathon Run#5- Supposed to do 3m and I did 3 m. So far so good, the new leg stretch seems to be doing the trick. I'm runing a 12:00 pace right now and hope to get that down with time. I don't want to push too hard right now but I feel OK about this. Excellent!!

Marathon Training Run #4
OK- finally some good news. I ran three miles yesterday at the gym. The knee did not give out this time but its definitely hanging around like some tiger waiting to pounce. I think that leg stretch that I finally started doing is making a difference. I'm going to try again today and hope the knee keeps cooperating. I was happy that it went good.

Went to Loma's last night. Not bad food. Talked about the FedEx commercial- "we're doomed". Also may start playing some racquetball which is cool.

Some good news from last night's climbing. I got the orange underhang route for the first time and I did it on last nights' first attempt! Very pleased. I also got an onsite w/ the green (V1?) last night!! My next attempt will be on the yellow V2.

Marathon Training Run #3
Not a good run...not good at all. As before, plan was to run 3 miles. I got about .75 m done before the knee gave out. I'm so sad about this. I'm already behind in my training and can't afford to lose another week but I think that's what I'm going to need to do. Anyway, got a bag of ice on the knee right now.

The backpacking class yesterday was pretty helpful. I found out that there are two bear types of bear attacks: defensive (bear is making noise, charging) and offensive (bear is watching you). If it's defensive chances are the bear is just scared and is bluffing- stand your ground. If it's offensive, you might be in trouble because the bear is sizing you up for lunch. Also, if worse comes to worse, and it's a grizzly "playing dead" is a good tactic but if it's a black bear- fight back!!! I also found out that it's best to fight back with mountain lions and make yourself appear bigger- raise sticks above your head. In general, don't bother running from bears or mountain lions because then you start looking like prey and they'll chase after you (and they will catch you). We learned alot of stuff about shoes, tents, sleeping bags, backpacks, food, etc. The last session is today from 11:30 - 5:30. I'll probably leave earlier 'cause I need to go climbing @ 6. Talk to ya.

Marathon Training Run#2
The plan was to run three miles today. Did the running at Gold's and the knee gave out at about 1.7 miles. So pissed!!! I ended up just walking the rest of the way. My pace was about 12 minutes up until the injury; ended up running a fifteen minute pace after the injury. Anyway, now I'm icing it down and am bummed. I thought I might be Ok if I just run inside but noooo- so now I think I'm in trouble.

The week was pretty brutal overall- I was sick for the most part and my voice gave out on Friday. I did sign up for the backpacking class this weekend so I'm looking forward to that. EC emailed me and it sounds like MC is having a tough time at work- feel bad but not sure what I can do. I did email grace and trishar05 for icouldbe to see if I could help anymore. Also, confirmed attendance at prevention works next Tuesday.

Long time no talk. Looking at my last post it's been a week since I've blogged....seems longer. Anyway, I got my taxes done on Saturday and got 6K back. Sweet!!! That will go a long way to paying off my credit cards. I also did some running yesterday at Gold's. It was my first official run in preparation for the marathon (at least according to the training schedule). Knee feels a little tender this morning but OK. Also did some climbing on Sunday and am anxiously waiting for the primaries tonight. I really hope Clark pulls it off.

Work was pretty much a waste today. I did some stretching this morning which was good and the knee is definitely feeling better. I might be able to run this weekend. Back to how work went today. Came in late and left early (~3:00). The SDN meeting was a waste (no one showed up). I hope the S & F meeting comes together tomorrow, left alot of voicemails w/ folks to let them know. Read through what I needed to do for LF and it looks like alot. It's due this Friday so might cheat and make stuff up but we'll see. Also, emailed SM about providing more details on rationale why we changed test plans. I

We had kinda of an ice storm so there wasn't really anyone at work today anyway. I was watching the polls all day, I really hope Clark pulls an upset. Going to keep an eye on the weather and make an audible about the primary watching event tonight.

Interruption-Just got a voicemail from Espo and he left me a bunch of audio stuff w/ Beavis and Butthead, Airplane, and Simpsons. He was responding back to my earlier haze re: get the fat kid out of the picture. It was hilarious. I also emailed Ken to see what was up w/ his choice re: changing jobs.

Listening to a Peter Gabriel album called "Passion". Sounds cool so far. Anyway, alot of last night but I went into work anyway. I did do some stretching before I went in and the legs felt good. Annoyed overall that my body has decided to show its age. The knee hurts a bit and now the right shoulder is hurting from climbing last night.

No one really around at work. I was able to clean up my office. A little excitement when I found out someone was using my email to re-subscribe me to capitalaction. I got the IP info. from the listowner and emailed the security people to try and track down who is doing this. No response yet but still weird that someone is doing this. No clue why someone would want to do this. I also talked briefly w/ JM about the new SFC task and I'm really nervous now. There's somethign like 10 people working on this and he said he was at it for about a .3 of his time. I can't do this and the rest of my work. I need to give up something 'cause I'm not going back to working insane hours again. It ain't happening!!!

Got a good note from AC that she is going back to school. I'm really happy for her and I hope she is able to get out of the rut. It's so easy to just give up and roll around in the mud. I'm keeping my fingers crossed.

I've been watching the polls and NH stuff all day. I really hope Clark gets at least third tomorrow. He's not tainted by the politics crap and is very inspiring. He can totally get us back on the right track. Speaking of the right track, a budget report came out today saying we'll have about a 477 billion dollar deficit this year!!!

One other thing- the knee is still hurting and I'm worried about the marathon. It was really cold today and I can feel the knee tightening up on the way to and from Church. Expecting a snow storm tonight so we'll see how it goes w/ work tomorrow. Also, ordered the Commanding Heights DVD and a book about the global economy with a focus on the gap between the rich and poor. People are blaming globalization for alot of the world's ills and I want to understand both sides better. I'm a little biased right now and think that globalization has helped to foster competition and has created alot of new jobs and wealth. Yes, the wealth is not going to the right people alot of times but to me that means the issue is not globalization, it's more about fixing what's wrong with it. I do believe it needs to do a better job of distributing the wealth and jobs it creates but as a whole it's a good thing. That's what I think today, we'll see if tomorrow changes my mind.

Finished climbing class tonight with K. Next class to take is Turning w/ D. Had trouble with a couple of routes especially the one where I needed to lunge for the hold above me. Anyway, my knee started hurting a little bit by the end of the night. Iced it down a bit. That's it- g'night.

Summary of work today- worked on the markings summary for most of today. Found a BIG error in our cost estimate. Somehow in our original report I estimated cost increases on the order of 25% to 33% but when I rechecked the numbers they're actually 30% to 50% higher. It looks like I took the cost difference and divided it into the proposed cost instead of the costs associated with the standard marking. Doooh!!! I'll need to give BD a call tomorrow. Also, discussed goals with the management group. Most of it was in-line with what I was already planning to do anyway. That's it.

I almost forgot- last Friday I met with some people here at work to discuss potentially supporting a redesign of the O'Hare airport. They are looking for a way to analyze the impact of a new runway and tower at the airport. I agreed to put together a plan for review this Friday. The trip to ORD is supposed to happen on 1/27. I'm excited 'cause this may turn into a big effort with alot of "site" visits. Keeping my fingers crossed....

Didn't sleep very well last night. Don't know why either. Knee still hurts a little bit and it feels like that cold or whatever it is still sticking around. My body is having a little rebellion right now. If I were a dictator I would crush this little uprising. Unfortunately, I'm not so I just have to suck it up and deal. It's Sandy's B-day right now. I can hear them outside my office wishing her Happy B-day. Now they're talking about what lunch to get for the goals "offsite" this afternoon. Read a good chapter in the social entrepeneur book about a guy who put together a college prep summit for low-income students. He is so right, the first one that goes to college sends a ripple through the family and the community. It was such a great story. Anyway, CASA called today and I'm going to call them back and set up an appointment. Later.

Saw documentary on "Touching the Void" at REI. A movie about two climbers who went up a mountain in Peru. One of the climbers (Steve?) got injured on the way down so the other climber helped him down. Eventually, they got stuck with the injured one hanging over a cliff. The anchor was slipping so the one on top cut the rope. Tom?? fell into the crevice and then went deeper and somehow survived for another three days and got out. The guy who fell and survived was there at REI. Someone in the audience asked if the experience made him more religious or changed his views on God. He said No- if he believed God would come and pluck him out he would have done nothing or if he believed he would go to heaven he would have stayed there and died. I understand what he's saying. It was interesting....

Anyway, I went climbing afterwards and things didn't seem to go well. I had alot of trouble traversing but it could have been my leg or maybe I didn't get enough to eat today. A little discouraging but I'll keep trying. ..

Just got back from Starbucks and grocery shopping. While I was drinking my coffee, I was reading an article in the New York Times about Brazilian slums. I found out that a third of the world's urban population - ~1 billion people - are living in slums. This is insane! I knew it was alot but seeing the numbers in black and white was really shocking.

Just got done running. I ran the basic run, from my place to 395. The left knee is HURTING and I'm icing it down right now. It felt OK during the run but now that I'm resting it really hurts. I hope the icing and stretching will help. I really hope this thing heals and it doesn't stop me from running the marathon. Wasted a good part of the morning laying around...See ya